Is this really happening??

Hey,
It's been awhile..,.I had an amazing holiday season. Spent christmas eve and christmas morning with my family...I GOT A LAPTOP I know shocking!! I love it...my mom also got the family guitar hero....my sister got a laptop also, and my brother got an awesome banjo that he loves...and the boys of course got spoiled. christmas evening i met matthew at his dad's and i met a lot of the family and got to hang out with him and his sisters. for those of you who don't know his older sister veronica and i have been really really good friends for a long time she works with me. And i got to play with his niece and nephew before we went back to my parents so he could spend some time with them and my brother. That was nice. New years eve we spent at my friend Jenn's house just for like two hours we left about five after midnight and came home. and spent some time alone. I love that man with all my heart.
It blows my mind. how many of you remember all the years i said i'd never find anyone and i'd be alone forever...and i just wasn't sure it was in the cards for me...God is a smart guy. He was just under my nose for over a year...and now he has my heart. I told him last night "I can't believe you love me enough to want to spend the rest of your life with me" his response..."you better believe it" lol and he told me he can't wait for me to have his kids....he's amazing.
I can't believe i'm gonna get married....no he hasn't proposed yet but apparently he knows when he's doing it. I'm not supposed to know about that, but he's told a few people and i'm a little nosy...I just can't believe it. Me....I'm gonna get married one day.We talked about it the other day and we both want to have a wedding with in the next year and a half at the most. It's shocking how fast it can happen when you know you know...I just never knew it was possible to love someone as much as I love him, and to actually see yourself growing old, and raising children with someone...and be excited about it. wow....This isn't me this is someone else. :) hahahaha
well I'm just full of love and appreciation of what God has done with my life this past year...and what is to come...I'm so lucky and blessed....
love you all